Sitting alone in the Bombay airport got me thinking! What am I doing here? No this plan was not there same time yesterday. I was supposed to be in Trichy! Attending the wedding of one of the closer cousins. Yet, I don't regret being here at all. I mean, I seriously think I did the right thing by coming here and I'm excited for the meeting in Raipur tomorrow. Raipur? Now, that is where I'm headed to. Sorry for confusing you all enough. That is how my life is, even for me. Confusing!
I was in Chennai, Bangalore, Hosur, Salem, Trichy, Bombay, Raipur in the last two days and most of it was unplanned.
I think I like being indecisive. The chaos. The last four days have been absolutely chaotic and I liked that feeling. Somehow being decisive in the thought process, having the next ten years sorted out in life, planning well ahead of time for the future, saving money for the retirement, is just not me.
Does it irk the people around me? The other day even the often reticent dad sounded a little annoyed. Paavam, the wife had to take most of the brunt I presume. For I don't know where I'm going in the next two months. For I have delayed the decision till the last moment. And that means, that she also does not know where will she be in the next two years and may be after two years as well. And I'm at peace with that. Now, I'm seriously doubting whether it is okay to not get worked up and tense about the where's and how's of life.
I somehow just like the idea of going without much plans. Letting the situation hit you. Is plain laziness has something to do with it? Or is it just the personality?
Bring it on people! How do you respond to life? Do you like your life sorted out? Do you plan ten years ahead? Do you like planning for a tour two months in advance? Do you revel in doing things as it comes? Or have you already planned your children's education also?
The chaos or the planned serenity? What do you prefer?
I was in Chennai, Bangalore, Hosur, Salem, Trichy, Bombay, Raipur in the last two days and most of it was unplanned.
I think I like being indecisive. The chaos. The last four days have been absolutely chaotic and I liked that feeling. Somehow being decisive in the thought process, having the next ten years sorted out in life, planning well ahead of time for the future, saving money for the retirement, is just not me.
Does it irk the people around me? The other day even the often reticent dad sounded a little annoyed. Paavam, the wife had to take most of the brunt I presume. For I don't know where I'm going in the next two months. For I have delayed the decision till the last moment. And that means, that she also does not know where will she be in the next two years and may be after two years as well. And I'm at peace with that. Now, I'm seriously doubting whether it is okay to not get worked up and tense about the where's and how's of life.
I somehow just like the idea of going without much plans. Letting the situation hit you. Is plain laziness has something to do with it? Or is it just the personality?
Bring it on people! How do you respond to life? Do you like your life sorted out? Do you plan ten years ahead? Do you like planning for a tour two months in advance? Do you revel in doing things as it comes? Or have you already planned your children's education also?
The chaos or the planned serenity? What do you prefer?
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