Three Decades of Craziness, failures, crashed dreams and bliss!

It is finally on! No running away from it. Officially I’m entering the fourth decade of my life! Phew, I feel really old.

So how has the last decade been? Of craziness, failures, crashed dreams and bliss! I know those words contradict. But that is how my life has been. 

A decade where my dreams made me do crazy things. Where the childhood dream of working hard supposedly for the betterment of this country in a interior jungle happened. Where the crazy idea of quitting a highly respected, highly paid job in the glitzy Chennai's IT suburb happened. Of course, the agonisingly close failure when another of those crazy dreams came crashing down, when I came tantalisingly close to clearing the IAS exams. And yes, this decade had the saddest demise of the mother, someone whom I loved and miss so much.

It did have the wedding, the usual brilliant family, lot of 'In law' love - sometimes embarrassing, sometimes overwhelming, the beautiful friends, the best dad, a brother to whom I owe so much, the sister who has just poured out love, and of course the wifey for whom I cannot thank enough. 

So what do I do in the next decade and after? Should I keep following the crazy dreams? And do whatever my mind and the inner heart tells me to do? Or just settle down peacefully? 

Is thirty considered too old to be trying out things? Following your heart? Should I by now decide what I am going to do in life and start thinking of settling down in a place? Should I still be the strong, 'I do what I do' individual or should I mellow down, and start listening to the wise folks? or can't I be both?

So folks, bring it on! My life the last decade had been a roller coaster. What will and should the coming ones be?